It's been a year since i last wrote anything on this page.
I can't explain it. I simply quit caring. I don't have a specific explanation but after i started being treated for my sleep apnea [february of this year marked the 2 year anniversary], i quit caring about things that i used to think were important.
My comic book collection has all but stopped, i quit writing as much on synaesthetic.com, i started painting more [to my shame, i didn't paint this winter] and i'd like to think i've become a calmer person. Having said that, i have to admit that last summer, The Summer of Hate, really took a toll on me. The reactionary nationalist, fundamentalist, uncurious, corporate subservient theological zealots that stood silent for ten years, all of a sudden found a voice when a [in their eyes], uppity negro president had the audacity to say that health insurance for corporate profits were a cancer upon us, when "liberty and justice for all" actually meant "the homo's too" and someone whose intellectual curiosity was more sophisticated than seeing himself in a flight suit and codpiece standing on a flight deck with a banner reading "Mission Accomplished" that his office had produced.
I'll save it for another time but while i find the idea of corporate profits for health insurance and the hypocricy of low information voters who scream "Socialism" when they're all for Medicare, Medicaid and have no problem with the V.A. [which is a fully socialized program since the doctors and staff are entirely paid for by the government], nor any problem using socialized roads, socialized schools, or holding their hatefest circle jerks in public [aka: socialized] parks. And then they tend to be the same bunch who scream, "Communist Fascist!" with no sense of irony whatsoever. As an aside, "Communist Fascist" is like saying "Loving Pedophile" or "Funny Rape" or "Enlightened Militant Fundamentalist". It makes NO SENSE. The words are diametrically opposed. Again, i'll get into that some other time.
Basically, i find the idea of a company making profits from recession, denial of payment and making a profit off of the well being of humans a repulsive idea on par with slavery, child labor and forced prostitution. On the other hand, i find the idea of making insurance MANDATORY by buying into these predators equally repulsive. Frankly, i don't see how it can survive a court challenge. That would be a few years down the line but saying you have to carry car insurance isn't necessarily equivalent to having to carry health insurance.
So i'm back in a manner of speaking. I'm hoping to refocus on synaesthetic.com and build some content back that's been gone, including the Sounds section. Unfortunately Wordpress doesn't do quite what i want it to so i'll have to hand code the rest of the site. That'll take time... lots of time. And frankly, i'd probably rather be reading, playing Bad Company 2, Team Fortress 2 or hell, maybe even painting.
-shelly, march 2010